What future I hav?

Ppl always say: the future is in your hands
but never once i had ever hold them
the only thing i hold on to is HIM
he is the one who answers all my prayers
i know my future is secured in his hands
if u wanna ask my which course i wanna take
where i would like to take my course
or what i wanna do in the future
I DON'T KNOW!!!
sad to hear i dun hav u as my backup
sad to hear that i nt that important
sad to know that u trust me to be alone
i'm nt as strong as u think=(
i'm nt as tough as u think=(
u wont know the abandoned feeling I hav when u think I don't need u and u won't be there for me
u won't know how lost I am the moment u said that
I thought u knew better...I thought...
bt this is what I will do: pray and believe in what u ask for=)
and also to understand and to obey the Lord's will
so that a secured future awaits me=)