知道你难受
你可能觉得没人能了解你
死了还被人说不珍惜生命
也问你为什么看不开
也说你不孝
我听了都为你感到悲哀
为什么没人愿意站在我的立场想
为什么没人问问我感受
为什么没人愿意相信我
心里这样想的吧
这时候，告诉他要珍惜生命简直是废话
因为他要听的不是你们怎样责备他
告诉他有多错, 说他是多么的贱
如果不改, 就是失败!!!
对一个有忧郁症的人 你们是多么的残忍
他死了，永远离开了
为什么我会那么感性
我也不知 他也只是位陌生人啊
可能因为他离我那么近却帮不到他
也可能因为看见关心他的人难过被感染了
但因为他让我更有决心地想要完成梦想
我应该会忘不了他
Right here waiting
to tell me the fact that I could never face it alone
until the day you come looking for me
I will be right here waiting for you=)
Unexpected blessings
not because of tiredness or laziness =P
but it is when I realised I'm no more in charging in something
I started to observe things SLOWLY and CLEARLY
Things I would never see or too occupied to see
the friendship in a society
the leadership training as a leader
the communicating skills with the higher ranking teachers or
the lower ranking juniors
firstly it was at the choir practice
the new batch of AJKs express every feeling they felt to avoid misunderstanding
I was so touched because I never have a chance like that=(
oops wei jia also got infected and started to blurt out all his unsatisfaction
then he made someone cried =.=
on the surface of it, I asked him to apologize
but then it is still the time for her to know it
too bad he played the bad role JUST IN TIME
leaving jobs for them made me felt that it's time to move on
to a new training "centre"
to gain new experiences in life
prefect's agm today was speechless
everything went well as expected
sis got herself a place in the admin board
happy for her *god had bless her*
saw true colours of some ppl *disappointed*
yew jet gave a speech to the new batch of ajks *touching*
regretted for not doing a good job throughout the years=(
lastly, at home
u know why my results are still so far worse that the top scorer?
Now I know...
The pressure I get from home
day and night talking bout the fees for college
asking for scholarship day and night
my heart bleeds hearing those words
u will never know
never.
I am lost but it gives me a chance to be more dependant unto the lord
unexpected blessings.
I know the lord will reveal them in his time
trusting the lord with all my heart...
p/s : i wrote this ytd=)
我愿意
应当毫无忧虑, 只要凡事借着祷告祈求,
带着感恩的心, 把你们说要的告诉__。
这样, __所赐的超过人能了解的平安,
必在_____,保守你们的心思意念。
腓利比书 4:6-7
填充的答案, 你会吗? 只有主耶稣才是对的答案
你愿意将一切交托于他手中吗?
我愿意。 =)
带着感恩的心, 把你们说要的告诉__。
这样, __所赐的超过人能了解的平安,
必在_____,保守你们的心思意念。
腓利比书 4:6-7
填充的答案, 你会吗? 只有主耶稣才是对的答案
你愿意将一切交托于他手中吗?
我愿意。 =)
麻木的我
现在的生活
我觉得好陌生
不知道自己明天该做什么
而且越来越健忘了
累了，也不能让自己休息
因为害怕来不及完成目标
知道自己有问题
但不知问题是什么
听到有句话
我牺牲我的快乐来成全你的快乐
那, 你快乐吗?
这可以用在我身上吗?
很快就会没事了，我常常这样安慰自己=)
我觉得好陌生
不知道自己明天该做什么
而且越来越健忘了
累了，也不能让自己休息
因为害怕来不及完成目标
知道自己有问题
但不知问题是什么
听到有句话
我牺牲我的快乐来成全你的快乐
那, 你快乐吗?
这可以用在我身上吗?
很快就会没事了，我常常这样安慰自己=)
It's all I have
another absent date for me
I planned to revise a bit of chemistry in the morning
to practice my piano in the afternoon and
to revise a bit of add maths for tuition later
but my plan doesn't seems to work well
I ate my breakfast while watching 2 episodes of "lie to me"
browsing trough the net for some fancy clip arts
then my brother and I went for badminton *sweaty*
next is our lunch time
mom cooked porridge not my favourite but it's nice=]
I went for my nap at 1pm zzZZ
woke up at 3pm wandering what interesting things had happened in sschool today
finally I am at my table flipping through revision books *phew*
throughout the day, I've learnt about two things
1. Slow to anger=) wanna know the story? Come and find out XD
2. The picture above--it's just a little heart of mine and I choose to offer it to the Lord=)
ciao XD
GOD BLESS YA
Wake up
Skipped trough my nap reading novel this afternoon
mom says I'm looking pale
asking me whether I'm sick or not
can I say yes? Then I'll get leave tmr *cunning*
lol maybe I am a bit tired physically
which makes me more tired emotionally
but the main cause is not the nap la LOL
thinking bout more exams down the year,
I feel tired =(
yeah, I should just wake up and move on
yeah, just do what I have to do
yeah, wake up wake up wake up!!!
I know I'm not the genius type of student
or should I say the good memory type
so I gotta reread reread and reread
yeah, hang on tight *blek*
yeah, I should start earlier cause I need more time to warm up yeah I'll rmb that=)
GOD BlESS ME=)
mom says I'm looking pale
asking me whether I'm sick or not
can I say yes? Then I'll get leave tmr *cunning*
lol maybe I am a bit tired physically
which makes me more tired emotionally
but the main cause is not the nap la LOL
thinking bout more exams down the year,
I feel tired =(
yeah, I should just wake up and move on
yeah, just do what I have to do
yeah, wake up wake up wake up!!!
I know I'm not the genius type of student
or should I say the good memory type
so I gotta reread reread and reread
yeah, hang on tight *blek*
yeah, I should start earlier cause I need more time to warm up yeah I'll rmb that=)
GOD BlESS ME=)
2nd father's day dinner?
There is a Japanese restaurant in sg. Long
we hav been living here for ten years
but not once we ever tried the food there><
two days ago we saw them moving over to new new area of sg. Long and then we thought of having dinner there =)
and then my dad looked at me and asked who will pay...
Then I answered: why? U expect me to pay ar? XD
dad: ya la...it's father's day ma...
Me: ok la I pay your share u pay the rest lor...
Dad: ok no prob=)
LOL so cute...
Anyway, tmr will be father's day
I hope all dads will get their surprises tmr=)
ciao XD
we hav been living here for ten years
but not once we ever tried the food there><
two days ago we saw them moving over to new new area of sg. Long and then we thought of having dinner there =)
and then my dad looked at me and asked who will pay...
Then I answered: why? U expect me to pay ar? XD
dad: ya la...it's father's day ma...
Me: ok la I pay your share u pay the rest lor...
Dad: ok no prob=)
LOL so cute...
Anyway, tmr will be father's day
I hope all dads will get their surprises tmr=)
ciao XD
What future I hav?
Ppl always say: the future is in your hands
but never once i had ever hold them
the only thing i hold on to is HIM
he is the one who answers all my prayers
i know my future is secured in his hands
if u wanna ask my which course i wanna take
where i would like to take my course
or what i wanna do in the future
I DON'T KNOW!!!
sad to hear i dun hav u as my backup
sad to hear that i nt that important
sad to know that u trust me to be alone
i'm nt as strong as u think=(
i'm nt as tough as u think=(
u wont know the abandoned feeling I hav when u think I don't need u and u won't be there for me
u won't know how lost I am the moment u said that
I thought u knew better...I thought...
bt this is what I will do: pray and believe in what u ask for=)
and also to understand and to obey the Lord's will
so that a secured future awaits me=)
but never once i had ever hold them
the only thing i hold on to is HIM
he is the one who answers all my prayers
i know my future is secured in his hands
if u wanna ask my which course i wanna take
where i would like to take my course
or what i wanna do in the future
I DON'T KNOW!!!
sad to hear i dun hav u as my backup
sad to hear that i nt that important
sad to know that u trust me to be alone
i'm nt as strong as u think=(
i'm nt as tough as u think=(
u wont know the abandoned feeling I hav when u think I don't need u and u won't be there for me
u won't know how lost I am the moment u said that
I thought u knew better...I thought...
bt this is what I will do: pray and believe in what u ask for=)
and also to understand and to obey the Lord's will
so that a secured future awaits me=)
Sweet memories ...
Went for a choir competition two days ago
many surprises turn up
i know trusting in the lord is the best thing to do
i prayed long ago be4 the compertition
to ask god to calm my hearts and provide my the strength to lead my team mates
haha even though it ended up like they had helped me more
had two sleepless nights 3 days be4 the compertition
but surprisingly the day be4 it i slept through the nite=)
early in the morning, i went to school for some preparation work
and then, we went to the place where we were supposed to compete
we were given time to warm up and practice a bit
yeah a bit nervous bt team mates cheered for me
aww so sweet of them so i pushed myself through it all
the 2nd suprise of the day : i saw clement...his friend must hav took me as a weirdo=.=
ahha...there's some technical problem so our 1st attempt were not counted so 2nd round here we go
while waiting for our turn, the younger ones started to complain bout their tummies
oops...we gotta wait till everything is over=(
3rd suprise: i would rather say it's a shocking news...we gotta perform without any preparation=.= *thanks weijia*
we sang
haha when we reached till the chorus,
the rest of them below stood up immediatly which brought thunderous claps from the other teams!!! FUN SHOCKING AMAZED!!!
and then the prize giving ceromony
i thought it is okay if we didnt win cos we all had fun
and it's the main issue=)
lol yu hua primary won too bt they went home too early=.=
next will be the secondary category
another one...I was awarded the best conductor of the day!!!
As I walk up the stage, the first thing that came across my mind was :
my prayers had been answered=) to god be the glory=)
when I walk down the stage, the third prize was being announced...our school again!!! Yuppie we did it!!!
Everyone were overjoyed
smiling faces brought satisfaction to my heart
sweet memories I will treasure forever=)
and I thank the lord for how he had blessed me
ONLY TO GOD BE THE GLORY
many surprises turn up
i know trusting in the lord is the best thing to do
i prayed long ago be4 the compertition
to ask god to calm my hearts and provide my the strength to lead my team mates
haha even though it ended up like they had helped me more
had two sleepless nights 3 days be4 the compertition
but surprisingly the day be4 it i slept through the nite=)
early in the morning, i went to school for some preparation work
and then, we went to the place where we were supposed to compete
we were given time to warm up and practice a bit
yeah a bit nervous bt team mates cheered for me
aww so sweet of them so i pushed myself through it all
the 2nd suprise of the day : i saw clement...his friend must hav took me as a weirdo=.=
ahha...there's some technical problem so our 1st attempt were not counted so 2nd round here we go
while waiting for our turn, the younger ones started to complain bout their tummies
oops...we gotta wait till everything is over=(
3rd suprise: i would rather say it's a shocking news...we gotta perform without any preparation=.= *thanks weijia*
we sang
haha when we reached till the chorus,
the rest of them below stood up immediatly which brought thunderous claps from the other teams!!! FUN SHOCKING AMAZED!!!
and then the prize giving ceromony
i thought it is okay if we didnt win cos we all had fun
and it's the main issue=)
lol yu hua primary won too bt they went home too early=.=
next will be the secondary category
another one...I was awarded the best conductor of the day!!!
As I walk up the stage, the first thing that came across my mind was :
my prayers had been answered=) to god be the glory=)
when I walk down the stage, the third prize was being announced...our school again!!! Yuppie we did it!!!
Everyone were overjoyed
smiling faces brought satisfaction to my heart
sweet memories I will treasure forever=)
and I thank the lord for how he had blessed me
ONLY TO GOD BE THE GLORY
The promise of love
Love would never be a promise of a rose garden unless it is showered with light of faith, water of sincerity and air of passion.♥
To God be the glory
Oh my my my...2 more days to the competition...
Nervous nervous nervous is all i could think of =<
i admit it's our lack of preparation...
But i know i did my best in all i could have done so why not enjoy it with my friends??
The next thing i do is singing this :
"when all you gotta do is strong, move along move along like i know ya do, move along..."
yeah well it does help to soothe a bit of my nerves
the next moment I get my conscious back,
nervousness came flooding in again >.<
ahaha now what? I go moving around the house feeling angry, confuse, lost...
Then I found a book of testimonies and read through them...
Peace filled through my heart instantly=>
I know my prince of peace is always by my side...
As long as I cried out to him, my prayers will be answered for his promise is stated in his word :
Don't worry about anything, but everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
[ Philipians 4:6-7]
Nervous nervous nervous is all i could think of =<
i admit it's our lack of preparation...
But i know i did my best in all i could have done so why not enjoy it with my friends??
The next thing i do is singing this :
"when all you gotta do is strong, move along move along like i know ya do, move along..."
yeah well it does help to soothe a bit of my nerves
the next moment I get my conscious back,
nervousness came flooding in again >.<
ahaha now what? I go moving around the house feeling angry, confuse, lost...
Then I found a book of testimonies and read through them...
Peace filled through my heart instantly=>
I know my prince of peace is always by my side...
As long as I cried out to him, my prayers will be answered for his promise is stated in his word :
Don't worry about anything, but everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
[ Philipians 4:6-7]
Father's day dinner
Brought my grandparents for dinner today...
Yummy...we went for western food...
The restaurant is located at taman billion *if u know where*
[i forgot to take photos, not use to blog yet]
the food there is so mouth watering and the price is reasonable
i had my share of lamb chop with a cup of carrot juice which only cost me RM17.90...
Dinner went well and the best part is grandpa and daddy LOVE to the food!!!
Lastly,
...
...
...
...
...
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all daddies!!!
Love ya muchie=)
Yummy...we went for western food...
The restaurant is located at taman billion *if u know where*
[i forgot to take photos, not use to blog yet]
the food there is so mouth watering and the price is reasonable
i had my share of lamb chop with a cup of carrot juice which only cost me RM17.90...
Dinner went well and the best part is grandpa and daddy LOVE to the food!!!
Lastly,
...
...
...
...
...
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all daddies!!!
Love ya muchie=)
Encouragement or discouragement??
When u tried so hard to achieve something u always wanted, and when it can't reach your expectations, the only thing left in your mind is disappointment...
But after that, it will be a brand new day...
JUST KEEP IN GOING!!!=D
But after that, it will be a brand new day...
JUST KEEP IN GOING!!!=D
Coming back??
First post from my handy gadget...
My last post was a year ago???
AHaha pretty long ago huh?
I thought I could always be the cheerful one
I thought sadness should be hidden
I thought I'm used to be the tough one
I thought I'm always the different one
I thought life would be easier that way
BY PRETENDING TO BE OKAY...
Okay okay those are my thoughts until
...
...
...
someone told me this:
u Know, why people expect us Christians to be perfect??
We're just humans like they are...
We trust the lord our god but that doesn't mean we are perfect!!!
We are also sinful creatures because we're descendants of Adam LOL
That why we need Jesus Christ=)
yuppie, until then I thought for a moment...
Why would u give yourself a hard life?
You're not perfect...
You're depending on your majestic Lord...
Your creator, your destiny, your all in all <3
so yup, do not worry for tomorrow=D
lots of stuff to do...lots of pressure coming in...lots of accomplishment this year...yeah,but it will be a fruitful year...amen=)
My last post was a year ago???
AHaha pretty long ago huh?
I thought I could always be the cheerful one
I thought sadness should be hidden
I thought I'm used to be the tough one
I thought I'm always the different one
I thought life would be easier that way
BY PRETENDING TO BE OKAY...
Okay okay those are my thoughts until
...
...
...
someone told me this:
u Know, why people expect us Christians to be perfect??
We're just humans like they are...
We trust the lord our god but that doesn't mean we are perfect!!!
We are also sinful creatures because we're descendants of Adam LOL
That why we need Jesus Christ=)
yuppie, until then I thought for a moment...
Why would u give yourself a hard life?
You're not perfect...
You're depending on your majestic Lord...
Your creator, your destiny, your all in all <3
so yup, do not worry for tomorrow=D
lots of stuff to do...lots of pressure coming in...lots of accomplishment this year...yeah,but it will be a fruitful year...amen=)
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